Liam Payne has said in a new interview that being a member of One Direction “almost killed” him. In the interview with podcast “Table Manners with Jessie Ware,” Payne revealed he began to drink too heavily and it took a toll on his health.
“I went through a stage in the band when I was drinking really heavily — I put weight on and didn’t notice,” he said, noting that people would refer to him as the “fat” member of the group.
“I was just really drunk every day. I didn’t see what was looking back at me in the mirror.”
Payne’s drinking became a ’round-the-clock event, and he’d only sober up for their concerts.
“I used to just get wasted and say whatever I wanted. Our schedule time was just a mess, I used to get off stage, high off the endorphins and get horrendously drunk, get up at 5 in the afternoon and do it all again,” Payne, recalled. It wasn’t until he saw a paparazzi photo of himself that he realized he needed to make a change.
“I was surprised I’d become that guy. I’m glad it happened,” he said, “it was worth it to make me realize what life’s made of.”
“I learned to become a recluse a long time, and once you get in that pattern, it’s dangerous because you get stuck in it,” he admitted.
Though Payne admitted he feared to leave the band given their success, he said he knew it was necessary.
“Not a relief, it was scary at the time, but I needed it to stop,” he said. “It would have killed me.”
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